Molester's can still molest!
Prohibition against offenders who have committed crimes against minors from being in the visiting room with any minor.

I'm a Victim of Molestation

I am a 44 year old Hispanic male. I am currently serving a 25 year to life sentence for possession of a fire arm. No crime or commission of a crime, just simple possession. I'm sharing my story in the hopes that it may be used as an instrument for change for what I see occurring today in prisons up and down the State of California.

I've been a victim of molestation several times throughout my childhood, and even today I can still remember the time, vividly, as if it was yesterday. I can still see the features of the man, smell his foul breath, and even remember the smell of dampness in the back room of his downstairs apartment. I was 5 years old, he gained my trust by always buying me and the rest of the neighborhood kids ice cream and candy. I still remember being stood on a chair and having my penis in his mouth as he sucked it until it tickled. I remember being this little kid not really understanding why, but knowing something was wrong. Instinctively I remember washing myself over and over again until I was raw. I remember my mother asking me what I was doing, and I could only reply "I have to clean it, mommy".

My next memory of being molested was when I was 8 years old. This time it was an older neighborhood boy 16 or 17 years old. I remember playing in this abandoned house and being talked into going inside ... I was fondled while he masturbated himself to ejaculation .. fast forward ... I'm now 10 years old, and at this age I liked to mow lawns, and do odd jobs. I did this to help keep eggs, milk, and tortillas on the table. My mother was divorced and we were going through a rough time. there was a barber shop across the street from our home, I would always go ask the barber if I could sweep up and make a couple of dollars. Sweeping up eventually turned into him sucking my penis every chance he got and giving me hush money. By this time in my life my little brain and body was numb to these molestations.

My last memory of being molested was when I was about 12 years old. He was a priest at the local church, he would pleasure himself by rubbing himself against my little body until he ejaculated on me. he told me I was doing God a great service, all the while giving me money to stay quiet.

Today, I find myself in prison surrounded by these kind of men, men who would corrupt the innocence of a child for selfish pleasure, am I bothered? YES! And what bothers me most is that these people don't get alot of time, and the time they do get they spend plotting on how to become a better predator. New laws come out every day concerning these child predators, and all they serve is to make them talk about going underground when they get released. While doing their time they are allowed to visit in the visiting rooms where other people's children are visiting. I heard a story of an inmate's kid actually being molested in the visiting room. WAKE UP PEOPLE! How does society continue to send these animals to prison and not treat them? This was very hard to share my story because of the vivid surrealistic memory recall of these events in my childhood. Even as an adult I still get flushed when I hear people talk about these types of individuals. Though I must live the rest of my life with these memories, I truly and most sincerely don't wish for any other child to have to live with the nightmares I do. My name is Paul M. and I am a victim of multiple molestations.

Paul J. Marines
J-09700, 14-223
M.C.S.P.
P.O. Box 409060
Ione, CA 95640

My Children Were Molested while I was in Prison

My name is Librado C., serving a 32 years-to-life sentence for a Third Strike violation of the law (1st Degree Burglary). I'm going to share this story of mine with those that may find it somewhat interesting but, sad as well.

Back in 1987 while I was serving a prison sentence in Soledad Prison my two youngest children, son who was two (2) years of age at the time and my daughter who was four (4) years of age, were molested. My children were playing in the front yard of our home when this one (1) person who told my children to call him "The Boogey Man" and not to tell anyone his name, had grabbed my kids from the yard and placed them in his van.

At this time, he drove them all around the neighborhood and had stopped at a liquor store to buy them some candy and ice cream. He then drove to one of the blind spots in the neighborhood where he started to fondle with my son's private parts. He then momentarily stopped and turned to my daughter and started to utilize the ice cream sticks to separate her vagina lips and threatening them at the same time. He kept telling the two scared little children that if they even said anything to anyone, he would kill their father. He had then told them that he forgot there wasn't any man in their home, which only proved that he had been stalking our home! So he went on to tell them that he would kill their mommy if they said anything.

Out of fear, my two children tried to withhold this from their mom and only until she bathed them is when she noticed that my daughter was sort of raw down in her private area and she started to swurve as something was irritating her. My wife then asked her what was the problem and my daughter started to cry and said that she couldn't say anything. My wife was persistent and continued to ask my daughter what was the problem. Finally, my daughter started to explain what had taken place and as any mother would do, my wife went hysterical, crying, feeling guilty, and didn't know how to pursue the issue at hand.

Well, the person she felt comfortable with in sharing what happened was with my family and when she did, immediately my mother told her to call the police have them act on it as quickly as possible. My wife did as she was asked to do and when the police arrived at our home, the first question out of their mouths were, "Where's the kids father at?" My wife felt offended but came to the understanding that they were following protocol. However, when my kids were questioned, the police interviewed my son first and he was so frightened that he urinated in his little pants and they had to have his grandmother (my mother), there to comfort him. My son went on to explain as much as he could (because you have to remember that he was only two years old), he told the police that the man that did this to him and his sister, his name was "The Boogey Man" and that he was scared to talk!

As the interview went on, the police took notice that it was quite difficult for the two children to talk and they were then referred to a Therapist for counseling. They had been in counseling for like two (2) years when I finally paroled in 1989, keep in mind, all this time I never knew that this had taken place. My family was worried that I would do something crazy and they had promised each other that they would do their best to keep this from me!

They did a damn good job of keeping it from me but when I finally found out what had taken place, it all came out when one day I was wrestling with my kids in the bedroom, there I was letting my son jump on me and grab me in a choke lock and so on. I then noticed my daughter standing at the doorway crying. I had asked her, "What's the matter?" She then replied, "I wish it was always like this, I wish that you would've been home all the time!"

I knew something was wrong and that she was withholding something from me and I kept asking her what's wrong, why will you not talk to me, I'm your father! She said that she didn't want me to go away for a long time and that she and her brother felt really safe with my presence.

Talk about guilt! Anyway, I must let you know that it took about six (6) months for me to find out what had taken place, after I had paroled. I then started attending the therapy sessions with my family and that helped me a great deal! During the therapy, I found out that my kids described their attacker as a white (Caucasian) male, about 5'10" - 6' tall and with a beard.

That isn't the only time I became a victim of Sexual Assualt. Recently, I had received a phone call from my family and the news wasn't very pleasant! This is when I found out that my 1 1/2 year old granddaughter (which was recently adopted) was molested. The sad story about this, is that it was her adoptive father! Who in the world would even think that something like this would occur in a home that the State apparently trusted? Now, who is there to trust?

The fact of the matter and the oblective to this story that I am humbly sharing with all of you is the mere fact that those individuals that are incarcerated for these type of crimes, are in dire need of whatever help they can receive! (i.e., therapy, self-help groups, castration, diagnostic studies, secluded designated living area in society, or a One-Strike-Your-Out law, etc.)

Over the past thirty plus (30+) years that I've been doing time, these type of criminals have been without any type of assistance from the prison officials, let alone the entire Department of Corrections. Now, as recent as 2001-02, the Governor added Rehabilitation to the Calif. Dept. of Corrections, meaning there should be some type of changes for these type of individuals, right? Then we have the problem that the same individuals share the same visiting room with those little innocent children running around! What do you think may be crossing their sick and disturbed minds? Something must take place to protect the innocent and only we, collectively, can help change what needs to be changed! Lets work together people!

A Concerned Inmate & Parent!
Librado Clemena, Jr.
J-94579 Librado C.
Mule Creek State Prison
P.O. Box 409060
Ione, CA 95640

A Christian's Perspective

As a man who has been a Christian, attempting to follow the tenets of Jesus for more than two decades, I believe that one of my greatest obligations, which is also a blessing, is to forgive (Lev 19:18; Mt 6:14). By forgiving, all parties can move forward with the goal of healing and wholeness. I believe this regardless of the criminal offense (sin). This includes those who have committed crimes against children, but please know that forgiveness is not acceptance, as there is never an excuse for harming a child.

In an institutional setting, the state legislators and prison officials promulgate laws and rules that all offenders must follow for the protection of society, staff, and other inmates. Among these are restrictions as to who an inmate may visit with and under what custody restrictions. An important one is a prohibition against children visiting with inmates who have been convicted of offenses where minors are involved. What has not been addressed is the situation where the offender is in the visiting room when children of other family members are present. This places the minor in a dangerous situation when it takes but a second or two for the cunning and determined offender to act inappropriately. Whether crimes against children are a mental disorder rising from impulse control issues, deviant manifestations, or violent tendencies, it is the responsibility of all conscientious individuals, Christians especially, not to place stumbling stones or temptations before our brethren, or to place children in dangerous settings. (James 1:14-15; Cor 10:32; Lev 19:16) Therefore, until our mental health professionals and correctional authorities can be 100% certain that an offender will not re-offend; it is in the best interests of children and offenders alike not to be in the prison visiting room at the same time.

Gregory Watson, D-67547
PO BOX 409060, C-15-157U
Ione CA 95640

I am a Convicted Sex Offender. Convicted of having sex with a minor

My name is General Jackson and I was convicted of having unlawful sex with a minor. During my incarceration I have come into contact with other men who also have sex-crimes; and because we both were convicted of sex-crimes, I have been trusted on numerous occasions with the specific details of their crimes.

These men are in need of help, they have very serious problems which are not being addressed by the prisons, most of these men will be released from prison; and many have confessed that they still possess a desire to molest children, either by directly stating it, and or when speaking of their acts, lacking any remorse and not speaking of desire not to do it again.

Prison visiting rooms are full of children. People like myself, convicted of having any sexual-relations with a minor, can not visit with children. Personally I have no desire to molest a child, and avocation of preventing those convicted of sex-acts from any visits where minors are present, will adversely effect me. I have family, friends, grown-children and grandchildren who really want to visit me.

But, putting true child-predators in current visiting room settings where any children are present is like putting an alcoholic in a bar and being surprised if he is tempted and or does drink.

The problem is this serious; if it takes my sacrificing my ability to visit with my family for the next decade that I am scheduled to be incarcerated, I am willing to do so to protect these children; thus I fully support the efforts of www.realisticreform.com to rehabilitate sex-offenders, and to prevent child-predators from being in a visiting-room setting where children are present, www.youtube.com/lisabenoit1.

General Jackson, F-82251
P.O. 409060 (C11-143U)
Ione, CA 95640-9060

Protect Children in Prison Visiting

At a time when the prison population is at an all time high, we "society" have deemed certain crimes more heinous than other's. Sex-crimes against minors, which besides being exploited by media-outlets for shock/scare-value, many are not comfortable with discussing.

The offenders of these crimes are not mandated upon incarceration to participate in any self-help or counseling classes. We, society, love to scream that incarceration is about rehabilitation, but are deficient to provide it in areas we need it the most. In being really honest, we're encouraging sex-crimes against minors. By allowing offenders to be around minors in prison visiting-rooms. It is frightening to think that in a matter of seconds our children can be victimized.

Please help us in our endeavors to have sex-offenders re-habilitated, and banned from visiting-room if they are a threat to children: www.youtube.com/lisabenoit1.

David Barron, P-40858
P.O. 409060 (CG-159M)
Ione, CA 95640-9060

SUBJECT: PUBLIC INFORMATION
What: Drug use, alcohol, marijuana, methamphetamine.

The typical profile I am describing needs to emerge in a way that the typical female can understand as possibly being the very man she is letting live with her right now. I will outline several of the key personality traits to be aware of.

1. He's been out of work for at least six months or more, or to never of been gainfully employed in a steady job for a period of more than one year or more.
   
   
2. Prior arrests for things like DUI, Domestic violence) even if never convicted) drug intoxication in public, or other seemingly minor misdemeanor arrests.
   
   
3. This man truly believes he has never really broken the law so to speak, so does not yet realize that he might have substance abuse problem. The personality of the man, as far as he's concerned is of a common type among the other men he hangs around with, (no red lights flashing that he can see there). The man obviously can not see what is coming at him like a speeding bullet. He has no real intention of hurting another person nor does he see himself as violent, threatening, or a danger to society as a whole. He and the female are alone in the fact that neither of them can see what is really going on that should be of anyone else's business but their own.
   
   
4. The female trusts him mostly just as she would trust a baby sitter but even a little more, because sex is involved and part of the package. If the females family is not trusting of this man being involved with their daughter it may create a communication breakdown between them which will only strengthen the man's grip on his new found family.
   
   Why: He really is at a loss as to what he's doing wrong. He hasn't hit her yet, "he rationalizes himself". He has only disciplined the children to the extent of what he him self was objected to as a child I.E. (spanking and yelling). He figured the kids to be brats anyway because they are unusually clingy and cry too much.
   
   He says that he has never hit his own kids or ex-wife/girlfriend, but if the female were to inquire to the ex-wife or girlfriend, she would get a totally different story.
   
   
5. Most of all, this needs to be understood by the female A.S.A.P. This guy with no JOB, NO FUTURE EXPECTATIONS OF A JOB, OR ANY SOLID PLANS, is just using the female for a place to get high, a person to have sex with, and for a place to crash out at until something better comes along or she calls the cops on him for domestic abuse, because more likely that not, as he sees his grip weakening on her he will become abusive toward the children and anyone else that tries to intervene. The shift from Mr. Nice Guy into Mr. Hell on wheels is s subtle that it'll be too late for the female to do anything about it until it's too late.

Who: This profile I am describing is who I used to be. I followed this direct root right into prison for the rest of my life. The reasoning behind this writing is because I want the most at risk females to know something about what I did that was so horrible and despicable that I find it very hard not only to have to live the rest of my life knowing that killed my girlfriends 13 month old son Steven.

But just as hard to sit here today and try to explain to you why or how this happened.

This profile needs to be put into the minds eye of these females so that they don't end up with the poor excuse of the human being that could have committed such an act.

I had several of these types of relationships after my young wife and I separated in 1990. I was 21 and she was 21. For the next three years I tried to hang onto my sanity but I just couldn't get my act together. After six months of being through hell with my meth use I finally flipped out and tried to kill myself. After several failed attempts at that I just decided to cook my brains on alcohol and acid. These things I intentionally did to myself, however, the damage that was to be caused and the ultimate sins that would cast a shadow of darkness over Stevens family as well as my own were the damages that I can't pay for with my prison sentence, my freedom, my mental instability caused by having to survive the prison brutality for being a baby killer and any all other collateral damage that my actions caused.

Year # 1, after my wife and two children decided that they had had enough of me, was just my trying to regain my youth that had been lost due to me being a teenage father.

Year # 2, I spent just trying to get a date or hang out with someone who could tolerate my stupid ass antics.

Year # 3, I spent with a new girlfriend named Leann who had a son named Garrit. The relationship was good but her son was too much for me to handle and it caused a lot of problems because I believed Garrit should act as well mannered as my two children. The relationship ended abruptly and I was out on my ass with nowhere to go and my mom was sick of my drinking and pot smoking, so I couldn't go home.

Year # 4, I found a new girlfriend named Charlene she had two sons, one named Alex and the other one named Steven. Steven was the younger of the two, and was the victim of my crime, but Alex also suffered as the result of hi mother not paying attention to him and relying on the string of boyfriends that came in and out of that apartment to raise him.

The end of my last year in society was pure hell. The meth and drinking was totally out of hand and I was not in the mood to be screwed with. Everything was about violence and I was crusin for a brusin. After a six day run on meth Charlene and I were out of drugs and out of vodka so we eventually fell asleep. At about six A.M. the next morning Steven woke up and was crying I tried to get him to stop but he wouldn't. I was angry and I hit him in the back of the head. He died of a blood clot from a six centimeter skull fracture in the back of his skull. I received a 15 year to life prison sentence after pleading guilty to my crimes.

There is nothing I can say or do to ever bring Steven back, or to take back what I did that day, but if I can somehow get my plans for an advocacy for at risk females off the ground, I would know that Stevens death would not be in vein. I need help to do this project because I can't do it alone from inside this prison. I want to pursue the very county agency's that are responsible for keeping people like me out of section 8 housing and out of the lives of females that are just trying to raise their kids the best they can.

My life is not over and never will cease to exist for the cause of VISTIMS AWARENESS PROGRAMS. I am ready and willing to state my project ideas and base my fact on my mistakes in the effort to stop this type of victimization from ever happening again. I hope to hear from all interested parties as soon as possible.

My mailing address is
Mule Creek State Prison
P.O. Box 409060
Ione, Ca 94640
Christopher A. Stewart #J-98422 15-1651

Links about the subject

youtube.com pieces concerning Visiting Rooms in prisons

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